I only turned my back on the world
So, I wouldn't have to look you in the face.
Can you still make a sound tounge-tied?
With lips closed, many chances are missed.
While words said can't be taken back.
We close them, again...
Days were longer when you were missed
If you were a highway, I'd take the backroads...
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
04.26.09 Continued
Currently:Watching: Planet of the Apes
Eating: Cherry Turn-Overs
Drinking: Water [Yuck!]
Texting: DJ Willis
Location: The Apartment
Smoking: Pall Mall Blue
Reading: The Back Of My Hand
Planning: On Relaxing Tonight
After stressful days and nights trying to make sure I'll find a roof to have over my head, I've finally found a place to call home. It's odd how a person, with so much drive and maturity, can get sucked down into a rut and be surrounded by lazy and disrespectful people, who take all that is given to them for granted...I hate the saying, "God only gives you what he knows you can handle" or whatever, cause it's bullshit... If a person is stronger and sharper, why must they be put through more hell... Does that make one any better? Idk... I doubt it though...Within just a few days, I already have my belongings moved, a job set-up, and have it arranged to move into a bigger 2 Bedroom apartment... Fuck, if I was 18 I would just get my own place, pay my bills, and be alot happier living by myself... People disgust and annoy me for some reason... I hate having room-mates... Idk why, I just prefer to be alone...I've given up all hope on successful relationships, as well... No matter what it doesn't work out, and typically for some "bullshit" reason... People need to grow up and make up their minds before they act and speak... It just fucks people over when you're careless...My family's become like strangers; I hardly recognize their faces... They're just people I once knew, that have long since faded... My sisters don't even realize who or how I am, nor does my father or mother... and I don't even know how to relate to my little sister Cara... My mom's brainwashed her so much she's just fucked...It's sad... But, I don't feel like I really ever had a family to lose... It gets to me though, every now and then, when I let my conscious glide...As for myself, I'm a bit more lost then I ever thought... I change too much, from person to person. It's like I morph to fit the scene. Not one person knows all sides... And, I don't like not having a person who can understand me or read me. It's freightening when you don't know yourself, or how you're going to be from day to day. I wish I just had a constant, but that whouldn't be me :/ Whatever me is...
Eating: Cherry Turn-Overs
Drinking: Water [Yuck!]
Texting: DJ Willis
Location: The Apartment
Smoking: Pall Mall Blue
Reading: The Back Of My Hand
Planning: On Relaxing Tonight
After stressful days and nights trying to make sure I'll find a roof to have over my head, I've finally found a place to call home. It's odd how a person, with so much drive and maturity, can get sucked down into a rut and be surrounded by lazy and disrespectful people, who take all that is given to them for granted...I hate the saying, "God only gives you what he knows you can handle" or whatever, cause it's bullshit... If a person is stronger and sharper, why must they be put through more hell... Does that make one any better? Idk... I doubt it though...Within just a few days, I already have my belongings moved, a job set-up, and have it arranged to move into a bigger 2 Bedroom apartment... Fuck, if I was 18 I would just get my own place, pay my bills, and be alot happier living by myself... People disgust and annoy me for some reason... I hate having room-mates... Idk why, I just prefer to be alone...I've given up all hope on successful relationships, as well... No matter what it doesn't work out, and typically for some "bullshit" reason... People need to grow up and make up their minds before they act and speak... It just fucks people over when you're careless...My family's become like strangers; I hardly recognize their faces... They're just people I once knew, that have long since faded... My sisters don't even realize who or how I am, nor does my father or mother... and I don't even know how to relate to my little sister Cara... My mom's brainwashed her so much she's just fucked...It's sad... But, I don't feel like I really ever had a family to lose... It gets to me though, every now and then, when I let my conscious glide...As for myself, I'm a bit more lost then I ever thought... I change too much, from person to person. It's like I morph to fit the scene. Not one person knows all sides... And, I don't like not having a person who can understand me or read me. It's freightening when you don't know yourself, or how you're going to be from day to day. I wish I just had a constant, but that whouldn't be me :/ Whatever me is...
04.26.09
Hung up,and I'm wishing I could just hang...
Yet, your words are the only thing to sustain
In my heart, in my mind, in my ears
They're wearing me down...
Still I try try try not hear,
Not to speak to you...
Just a word from your lips and my thoughts become unglued...
How do I find the way to say
I'm in love with you
Yet, your words are the only thing to sustain
In my heart, in my mind, in my ears
They're wearing me down...
Still I try try try not hear,
Not to speak to you...
Just a word from your lips and my thoughts become unglued...
How do I find the way to say
I'm in love with you
Friday, April 3, 2009
04.03.09
The orange sun hugged the ground,
While the children ran and played.
It was 6 in the afternoon,
On a warm September day.
There were slides and swings,
On a sailing playground set.
These are few of the things,
That with age, you soon forget.
She was running past the tree.
He wasn't far behind.
While the children ran and played.
It was 6 in the afternoon,
On a warm September day.
There were slides and swings,
On a sailing playground set.
These are few of the things,
That with age, you soon forget.
She was running past the tree.
He wasn't far behind.
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