12.27.08

Now, I say that my memory is poor, yet I remember so much detail from every moment that's occured this year. It can't be from smoking pot, because I remember about every high, stoner moment that I've had under the influence of. It's probably just from when I'm suffering some psychotic episode, either depression or anxiety, which results in me blocking out moments of time and days at random intervals.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CODY CHRISTOPHER KLAMP!!! YOU'RE NOW 18 AND LEGAL!

Hopefully, today I'll be hanging with him, going to dinner, exchanging paper currency for plastic, being utterly submerged by drugs and liquor, and seduced while seducing in public places and within locked bedrooms. It's been wretched, not seeing him in two months! I get so alone and depressive without him.

I was on the phone with Cody this morning, around 1 to 2 a.m., and he unleashed the answer to why his and I's relation to one another has been so God damn in-sync and absolute gorgeous chaos, all in one... Turns out not only Aliena and I had BPD, but Cody did, as well... I was almost speechless for, honestly how could two people be so perfectly compatible?!?!?!?! Like, I never considered he'd have it, because I have it and also, do you know how fucking rare it is for a guy to have BPD!?! Extremely RARE!!! I'm such a hopeless romantic I believe that we're simply made for one another.