01.13.09

I wish this crying headache would cause my brain to swell and burst. I can't breathe. I just threw up blood on the account of being so upset that I started gagging. I believe I torn some sort of tissue in my throat. Just one more thing to worry about...

I want to die. I don't want any of this anymore. What's life, really? All I am, is alone and hurt. Every single person! EVERY ONE OF THEM! They've all GONE! They either've died, moved and faded, or just cut me out. I don't see the point... Why try to feel when it all comes back as another piercing dagger in your side. It's true when they say life's a rose... and I just so happen to have a thorn bush attached to mine. I can't be alone anymore... I'd rather be nothing than feel. Anyone have arsenic?